A couple months ago I remember warning my friend aionwatha not to get me started talking about Foxhole Court because once I get going I will not shut up. I can’t–it’s like a disease, a consequence of playing with (see: abusing) the same characters for 17 years.

Case in point: the ask I’m attempting to answer regarding Andrew & Mama Bee**. Some 600 words later I still haven’t finished rambling and I don’t even know if I addressed the question the way I was supposed to.

But let me trip over that again – seventeen years. Seventeen years of giving up & trying to walk away, then crawling back because despite how ridiculous the whole thing is I just didn’t want to let it go. For the longest time I knew if I could get just one stranger to read it and believe in it with me it would all be worth it. That was all I wanted, all I needed, please somebody believe in Neil

And now here we are, and here you are, and I wish I had words for how amazing you all are. You are the loveliest people I could ever hope to meet. Thank you feels horribly insufficient, but Thank you.

** below the cut because vague spoiler in that train of thought

((speaking of Bee the only thing I still find really upsetting about breaking Kevin up from Andrew & Neil is that when they were all together at least Wymack was promoted to being Neil’s father-in-law, and I wanted that so badly for him, if Andrew got to have a mother who loved him I wanted Neil to have a father he wasn’t afraid of))