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Anonymous asked:

How did Andrew react when he got the letter from Cass after Aaron's trial? He never replied, but did it help him to move on?

A

Sorry this took so long to answer! I’m still not entirely sure it’s coherent, but.

To be honest, by the time the letter arrives it’s too late to be closure.

If Andrew needed closure regarding Cass – which he honestly doesn’t believe he does, because Andrew & Cass are a convoluted mess and so much happens in California and so much happens after it that it’s a toss-up as to whether or not he’s right*** – it came at the trial. It came when Cass stepped into a courtroom in South Carolina, when Higgins had to testify, and Aaron had to tell his story, when Andrew had to tell the truth of what had happened of what he hadn’t been strong enough to stop of what he’d still failed to prevent of how he still couldn’t fight back when it mattered most

Closure came when Cass sat there silent and still and red-eyed but dry-cheeked, eyes forward and head down, looking at anyone and anything but the twins that cycled through the witness stand. Closure came when Richard looked at Cass instead of Andrew, making sure she could survive the ugliness and the loss and the betrayal, holding her together so the truth couldn’t break her apart in front of so many watching eyes.

After the trial Betsy takes Andrew out for chocolate malt milkshakes, and they sit for a half-hour in the diner without saying a word. At this point, Andrew understands–on some level, at least–that Cass is irrelevant. There is no room for her and her dreams in his life. ((He is filling her space with Bee and Neil, he is filling her space with promises and a tiresome but vaguely interesting team))

So by the time the letter finally arrives, they are just words on page from a name he knows but which no longer holds meaning, and Andrew barely skims it before throwing it away.



***((Andrew is of the opinion he’s held onto Cass for so long not out of affection but because she is a warning – the one time he tried to live for himself it was a disaster; Cass is what he almost willingly destroyed himself to keep.

((If not for Aaron he would have stayed))

Cass is a warning, a dream wrapped in venom, and Andrew has kept the memory close so he won’t make the same mistake twice. Andrew doesn’t live for himself anymore; he simply drifts from day to day, participating in life only because lying down and dying would leave his troublesome family undefended.))



((And then there’s Neil))

Sep. 29 2015
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