Q

Anonymous asked:

Would you ever share the side story you wrote about Andrew and Bee that you mentioned in the ask about the two of them?

A

There are technically three Andrew & Bee side stories. One would have to be reworked because it was from an era when the relationship was Andrew x Kevin x Neil ((the one where Bee has her medical issues and Andrew loses his shit with her)), one would have to be completely rewritten because it’s probably eight years old at this point ((the one about Andrew & Bee’s first session)), and the one that means the most is now completely irrelevant – the one behind the “Mama Bee” moniker, the one where Riko almost broke Andrew and Bee had to put him back together again – because that Riko & Andrew arc was erased**.

[[That third side story, by the way, is titled “SHATTER”, because that’s pretty much what happens to Andrew.]]

[[This final draft is the first draft where Andrew doesn’t know how to cry]]

So I guess the most I can offer is this bit, which was not part of the side story but was an accompanying flurry of narrative:

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“I can’t,” he said thickly. “Bee—”

HELP ME

Not words, because he’d never been taught to say such things, because he’d never been able to believe in it. The last time he’d asked anyone for help, he’d been shrugged off and betrayed.

Not words, but a feeling—a rush of desperate, flailing panic, shattering pride that had been pushed too far for too long. It passed between them like lightning, a dark storm in his eyes like she’d never seen before, and she forgot about the danger, forgot her own fear. Her hands, when she held them out, were steady and sure.

TRUST ME

She couldn’t say it, not when his knee-jerk reaction to such words was mockery and withdrawal. All she could do was balance there, palms up and waiting. What she was asking of him now was almost worse than everything Riko had done to him tonight, and she knew it. It was the only thing that could help him—and it would be what destroyed him tonight, letting someone hold him up, letting someone in.

She wasn’t entirely sure why he reached out. When he slipped his hands into hers, he squeezed hard enough to crush the blood out of them.

“I’ve got you,” she whispered, and prayed he could hear her over the heartbeat thundering against her palms. “I’ve got you.”

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** In that draft, Proust didn’t do anything to Andrew except drug him out of his mind, but he did report back to Riko on everything he found out during Andrew’s withdrawal and subsequent therapy. Riko figured out Andrew was the backbone allowing Kevin & Neil to spite him, so he focused on Andrew. He traded the Foxes’ safety through finals for a night with Andrew. Neil tried to prevent it by sending Aaron in Andrew’s stead, but Andrew caught on and went after his brother.

He thought he’d be okay, but Riko nearly broke him.

Aaron ((barely)) kept him from falling over that edge, and Bee was the one who put him back together in the aftermath.

.. but to actually answer your question: If I thought I could edit either of the first two side stories between now and New Year’s, I’d go for it, but the third story is pretty much off-limits for the time being.