so earlier this week I let go of a project that I didn’t think I’d ever say goodbye to.

not because it was a deep & desperate part of me like tfc is, but bc ely has been a source of anxiety for going on four years, ever since I discovered raven cycle halfway through edits. I’ve been sitting here for almost four years trying to come to terms with what’s the same and what’s different, and what I should but cannot change. in the end I just gave up

am I still Concerned? Oh, yes, more than you know, lovies. I feel it like coals in my chest and throat every time I think about it. But the problem with Ely – the problem with me as a writer, I guess? – is that I wrote what I wanted to write and I liked it, but I didn’t like it enough to gut it and start over.*

So all I can do at this point is give it a kiss on the forehead and wish it well, and focus on the next project until this one doesn’t scare me anymore. onward to witches and death curses, I guess?

But if you do give Elysium a shot, I hope you enjoy it <3 Thank you for all your support, m’loves

* I guess that’s a partial lie, bc honestly this story started as a WK AU fanfic in like.. 2004? I think I was writing it when I was in Nagoya. Farfarello x Schuldig ayyy